daydreaming / paris

 

sometimes all you have is your mind, and then it is up to you whether you fill it with good things or with bad ones. what do you choose? today i choose the best things possible, like travelling and paris. i got tired of saying this again and again, but things have been very challenging lately. i must admit - all of my essential plans for two thousand sixteen have not worked out. it is disappointing, but there is nothing one could do apart from accepting it and moving forward. this is exactly what i am doing right now - making new plans, looking for ways to make them happen, nurturing my mind in order to not loose faith in my own abilities. eventually it will work out. of course, it will. 

meanwhile i am here, working on a hot july day. no trip is happening for me this summer, which seems like the most upsetting thing ever, because i grew up being used to travelling in summer. every summer vacation meant a trip, sometimes a few. well, not this time. so, i went through a couple of phases. at first, i was hopeful and dreamy. i wanted to go on a trip, i wanted to be in another city, i wanted to meet new people, speak another language, eat different kinds of food, go shopping and buy new clothes, as well as a few books. i wanted it so badly, that i could not fall asleep at night due to the thoughts in my head. the more i thought about it, the more i believed that it was possible, when...it was actually not. 

fourty five reasons to read morrissey`s autobiography

today my part is going to be very-very short. i would just like to tell you that there is a very special book out there - "autobiography" by morrissey (he is a british musician, singer, songwriter and an extraordinary human being). i have wanted to read his book for a couple of years and finally last autumn i got it with a friend in paris. from the first page, i could see that this book was outstanding, there was something very different from most books. in the end, it was even better than i thought it would be. the way he works with words is truly magical. fastforward to last week, when i decided that if i cannot keep on buying new books on amazon right now, i will re-read my old ones. at first, this thought seemed pathetic and made me even more upset than i was before, but as i opened this book, i realized that it was actually a great idea. i am coming back to kiev tomorrow and i am looking forward to keep on picking up books from my shelves, that i have previously read a year or two ago and discovering their treasures again.

pictures on film / part five

girls, girls, girls! 

a month ago i posted a previous part of pictures on film, which were all, by the way, taken on old overdue film, whereas today you can see the result taken on a new one. after getting back the results, i realized two things: i desperately need to get a camera without a flash, because i cannot control it now, so my camera makes its own choice, whether to use flash or not to; and that taking pictures with a lot of birds` shit on the background is far from the best...idea we have ever had. this set of pictures is quite special because you can see three very different girls i spent time with in june and july, as well as a bit of me. therefore, it is a girls issue of pictures on film, which is exciting. this summer has not been full of events in my life, but i have definitely been lucky to meet great people and enjoy all sorts of conversations and activities with them (mainly being in cafes, drinking coffee and eating food while talking non-top). some say that real life is much better than the one online, which is true, but believe me, internet can introduce you to those, whom you could have never ever met otherwise, and that would have been a huge loss. therefore, go meet people online and then - in real life! it is so much fun, even if you are a home weirdo, like me.

again and again and again

standing up is hard, standing up again and again after falling so many times is even harder, but definitely worth it. it is something you should keep on doing no matter how challenging it seems to be. why? because what other options do you have? give up? how can that even be considered an option?

“ever tried. ever failed. no matter. try again. fail again. fail better.” - samuel beckett.

i am not sure if i have been lying to myself, but it seems like i have been trying pretty hard to achieve what is essential for me. there are things that do not let me sleep at night and do not let me relax during the day. i cannot feel calm or peaceful, because i know that i have not done something i had really wanted to do. i keep trying and trying and trying, but all — useless. i do know that i won`t stop, i will keep on making new attempts, but from time to time i feel like i am one of those people, who never get where they wanted to be no matter how hard they tried…however, i do not want to be that person! i want to achieve my goals, i want to finally be where i actually want to be and do what i want to do more than anything else. how can anything else matter more?

five movies to watch

(текст на русском - ниже)

i love watching movies and i love going to the cinema. for me it is not only one of the most enjoyable reasons to leave home, not only one of the best ways to spend free time, but also a huge source of inspiration. i have previously written about watching movies at the cinema here and here, and probably in most of my "good things" lists, because this process makes me very excited and very happy. basically, any day can become a great one just because of going to the cinema, and i am glad that it is this way, because i have been learning to create my own happiness. naturally, finding things that make you happy and then doing them is important.

the last weeks have been challenging and the last couple of days have been especially disappointing, this is why i wanted to write about something that brings me joy. i am not one of those people, who claim that you should always smile, every problem is an adventure etc. no, i believe that it is totally fine to be upset. moreover, i think that when you feel that way, you must let yourself be in that state for some time and take care of yourself without putting any pressure, but then shape up and do something special, create reasons to feel better. today i am going to the cinema and there are a couple of other movies that i cannot wait to watch when they come out, so i decided to share five of them with you.

on daily writing

i am very happy to have a new post ready today. if you read my post last week, you know that i have had quite a month, and getting back on track is never easy. if you did not - go read it now, before you continue reading this one. after you do - you will know that i have been writing and posting every single day for almost two months on medium. today i would like to tell you a little bit more about it. maybe there is something you have been thinking of starting for a while, but kept on postponing it. well, this post will let you know that you need to start right n o w.

good things list / june

it has been two and a half weeks after my last post here on the blog. it is crazy, because i have been trying to post twice a week for about eight months now. sometimes it worked out, sometimes i only had one post a week, but i had it. it has recently become impossible. i had quite a month, which was full of extra work and i had almost zero free time. it was hard, really hard. by the way, i still kept on writing on medium, because it felt like a challenge i could not give up on, as i promised myself that i would post there every single day, and so i did, but i could not do the same here. even though a blog seems to be a very easy thing to, it takes time and effort, and i love it, but i could not find enough time an energy to keep on posting here. luckily, the busy month is over and i am back. i promise to write and post here twice a week (on mondays and thursdays) and hopefully you will enjoy it. also, i have one thing that i would like to ask you - let`s communicate more! i would love to know who you are and what you think, so feel free to share your thoughts, deal?